Happy New Year

It has been a while.

Maybe I shouldn't apologise for my absence. It happens so often, you should all be used to it by now.

So, the last couple of months have been hectic and full of emotions. Downers were brightened by happiness and happiness was killed with darkness.

It really has been a whirlwind month & a half, hence the silence on my side.

I was doing well last year, things were looking a little brighter, dark clouds were being managed more easily and things were just flowing.

The end of November allowed those clouds to come raging in at full force and although I cannot be honest with as to why, I can confirm that it did mess up things a fair bit.

I went from planning our future in the UAE to halting everything, from being excited to go home for the Christmas period to not wanting to get on the plane.

Anxiety was in full swing.

I wanted to see my family & friends but at the same time, I didn't and I cannot explain why I felt like that, because it makes no sense to me either.

However, the almost 3 week break back in wet/cold England was overall a great time for us.

We got to spend loads of time with our close friends and family, we ate our weight in naughty foods and drank too much. We even manage to get a peak at snow!

All in all, it was great to be with everyone and just as sad to say goodbye yet again.

I have a few months ahead of big decisions, life changing issues and general tough times but I'm slowly working through it.

I'm making plans, I'm getting my head down and trying to make it all fit together. I'm allowing my OCD to go into overdrive, OCD Tash is loving all the list making and organization that's currently underway.

Anxious Tash is not so pleased, Depressed Tash doesn't give a fuck about anything.

So for now, I'll keep it short and sweet. I have a few posts planned for the near future so please do keep up to date.

Keep up with your feedback & contact, it's great to hear from all my readers.

Tasha out x