Exhaustion.
- natashayoung0407
- Feb 5, 2018
- 2 min read
It has been a while... again.
I'm not going to apologize this time as by now, you should all know what I'm like!
Today I want to share one way that depression and anxiety really drags me down.
I am exhausted.
Not just tired, not a little sleepy, I'm completely exhausted. All the time.
Now, I'm not one for a late night. Very rarely will you see my eyes open past 10pm (especially on a school night)
Even if I try to stay up, it doesn't happen. I'm 9 times out of 10, tucked into bed by 10:30pm.
I could have all the sleep in the world and it would never be enough.
Yes I may have a slightly disturbed sleep, it takes me a while to fall asleep once in bed as that's when my brain wakes up, I may hear the husband get out of bed to sort the kids but I never fully wake until morning.
I get a minimum of 8 hours a night and normally more but waking up in the morning is a nightmare.
I will snooze my alarm more times than is socially appropriate.
Once awake, I need at least an hour, 2 cups of tea and a cigerette before anyone should approach me.
Every morning my head is pounding, my mouth hurts, my eyes are sore and my body aches.
I spend my day constantly yawning, my body continuously aching and just generally feeling completely drained in every aspect.
This then triggers a whole line of problems.
My motivation dips, so I end up slacking on the jobs that I know need doing.
I look back at the jobs that I haven't done and feel guilty and awful for not doing them.
I then rush around trying to get everything done, whilst already internally frustrated, the complete exhaustion wearing me down blink by blink.
My OCD going into overdrive because I've rushed the jobs that need to be done in a certain way!
By the time it's done, I'm done. The sofa calls, the eyes close ... I'm wiped!
I cannot for the life of me, explain this feeling.
I'm exhausted but not sleepy (until the evening that is). It's way beyond exhaustion, to the point your body hurts, your mind hurts.
I know that it's one of the many symptoms that come alongside mental health but I just don't get it!
I guess it's a normal 'side effect' and I'm sure many of you reading this can see similarities.
Please feel free to message me with your stories, your tips/tricks or any questions you may have.
I'll be back soon.
The Anxious Mother x
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